Family Photos


We had our family photos taken for the first time since we lost our Beautiful Colette. I think I knew it would be hard but I don't think I was prepared for how hard it would be. I just had my dad take them out int the back yard while we were all wearing our July Shirts. I just was not up to setting up the lights and the backdrops. I'll have to do that eventually but this will do for now. To be honest now that we have had them taking I've been really struggling with the fact that at 31 my family photos will be incomplete for the rest of my life. It hurts my heart and my head to know that we will always be missing our Colette. That there should be two little girls with darling dimples not just one. It just really does not seem fair and I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that while everyone else takes their complete family photos for granted and their biggest frustration is that someone was not smiling or not looking at the camera. My biggest frustration will always be that our photos in this life will forever be -1.

We will of course still take a family photo every year. It would not be fair to Aaron and Bridgett to not. But I hope that in time it will get a little less painful. We will never forget Colette but a little less painful would be nice.

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  1. JennAugust 3, 2010 at 12:11 PM

    they turned out great. You have a special family Julia! and not just your own.. your extended family is great. I'm quite jealous of your pictures actually!

    love ya!

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  2. MonicaAugust 6, 2010 at 1:06 PM

    You're pictures are great. I love them. Remember Colette is never is never far from you. She is always with you especially in your heart. I do understand the loss to always know there is a minus one physically in pictures and in your life which is never easy. That loss will never completely go away because you are a good and loving mother.

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