Five Beautiful Blessings Between Heaven & Earth

Today marks 2 years since Colette has joined our family,  and two years since she went back home.  Oh how we all miss her!  We talk about her a lot and even though she is gone she is still very much a part of our family, and always will be!   I've had a plan for this day for several weeks now.  I have to have a plan or I'm afraid that I won't make it through the day.    Imagine my surprise as I overheard Aaron the week before telling Bridgett how excited he was for Colette's Birthday and how it's such a fun day.  Which is good  I'm glad that someone is looking forward to her birthday, but it was just such a shock to me to realize how differently we were looking at this day. So we got up this morning and got ready for the day.  We actually got some snow over night so Daddy and Aaron went and shoveled the sidewalks and drive way while Bridgett watched me finish up Colette's cupcakes.  Colette's two little candles.  Happy 2nd...

Today Dusty and I went up to Primary Children's and had fetal echo's done on the babies hearts.    It was nerve wracking for sure!  I had to keep telling myself that we were there simply because of Colette's history not because there was anything that they could see wrong with the boys hearts.   All in all it was a long appointment.  After wards we talked to the Dr and he asked about Colette's story,  It's a good thing I've gotten a lot of practice telling her story.  Oh don't get me wrong I could tell her story a million times and I never know when I'm going to be able to say it calmly and when I'm going to bawl through the whole thing.  But I have had a lot of practice tell her story and I think it does help. The Dr told us that Baby B's heart looks perfect he can see the whole thing and every thing look great.  Big sigh of relief!  Baby A?  Well his Tech thinks that she could see blood flowing between t...

It's January again.  The longest and hardest most bittersweet month of the year for me  and a month that I have to work extra hard to keep myself busy.  So I've been trying to keep busy with projects. My latest project was making some baby boy blankets for these little guys.  When I was pregnant with Colette I only made one blanket because I had so many left over from Bridgett that that was all I needed.  In the end it was the blanket that I ended up sending her to the mortuary in,  I was so grateful to have something made by mommy to wrap her in.  This time around I'm realizing that I don't really have any baby boy blankets.  I had several when Aaron as little 8 years ago but he was my blanket boy and he loved them all to nothing!   So I knew I needed to get sewing.  And I wanted to get it done because sitting at a sewing machine while very pregnant it not the most comfortable thing in the world.  So I've been picking our darling...

Tomorrow is our family birthday dinner for Nannie,  And it was my job to bring the cake.  So today while the kids were busy playing with the Grandparents I was busy working on a Chocolate cake with Chocolate frosting. Don't mind my flash it made my frosting look funky colored but I promise it's just one color! I hope she likes it!  Happy Birthday Nannie!

Today I ordered our first set of two.... Two car seats to be exact!  With the pregnancy being two babies and with it being over 8 years since we bought all of our last baby things,  we are finding that while these are our last babies we are needing to start over,  Car seats expire, Cribs break and or are recalled... and strollers well we've never needed a stroller to fit two before.   However this has been rather fun and exciting!  For the first time since we've started having children I get to actually pick out new baby things, and it's pretty fun! I've been on the hunt for an infant car seat.  My goodness they have come a long way in the last 8 years with car seats!  When we were pregnant with Aaron they really didn't have a huge variety of car seats.  there were a few brands but they all went to the same height, and weight and you pretty much just picked the pattern that you liked and called it good.  Now oh my goodness!  ...

So I had a moment of panic.  I really need to find Bridgett a preschool.   Why panic you say?  Well when Aaron was old enough for preschool I learned that a lady in our ward (it was right after we bought our house)  taught preschool one street over and I managed to get him signed up in her last spot.  It was great,  and he loved it!   But since then Miss Sheri has moved to a charter school to teach preschool and it's not only 4 days a week and not the very close, but it's also fills up fast and has probably been full for months now!    So I was left with what do I do?  I had no idea where even to start but I knew I needed to get it done soon because a lot of preschool fill up very fast!  I know that Bridgett will love being in preschool so I could not just sign her up,  it would be easier but she needs to go.  Fortunately my good friend Tiffany who is amazing at researching things, from politics to well just about any...

Tonight I was in the kitchen making dinner for the kids.  Aaron and Bridgett were sitting at the bar talking. Aaron was talking about how excited he was to have two little boy babies on the way.  There was a long pause.  I found myself listening to what Bridgett had to say to this.  (earlier that day she had cried and told me there was supposed to be one boy and one girl!  not two boys!)  After a brief pause I heard Bridgett say...  "Aaron?  Will you share one of your boy babies with me please?"   Awwwwwwwww  poor sweet Bridgett!  They have been saying since they found out there were two babies in my tummy that one was for Aaron and one was for Bridgett.  I think that Bridgett thought that since they were both boys,  they were both for Aaron and none for her.  I quickly assured her that even though both the babies were boys.  There would still be one baby for Aaron to help with and one baby for Bridgett to help...