Girls? Boys? Or One of each?

Today we had our big U/S at the Dr's office.   Aaron and Bridgett wanted to come with us so we figured since this was the last time we would be doing this it would be fun to let them come.  I think Aaron was very disappointed.   I think he thought that what he got to see on the screen was NOT looking much like a baby!  So after a while he just stopped paying attention.  And Bridgett?  I'm not really sure she was ever paying attention.   The first thing that Dr Bean told us was that the main factor of this pregnancy was to not let me get stressed so he told me right away that if there was anything that he could not see he was just going to make an appointment to send me to the Hospital to have the neonatal specialist do an U/S just to make sure that everything is looking good.  Not because he is worried but because you can't always see as much with twins and he does not want me to stress that something is going wrong with what we cant see.  And as he suspected there was not really a whole lot that he could see being two of them squished in there.

He could tell right away that One was a Boy... and the other he thought for a good 10 mins might be a girl, which of course got my hopes up! Of course I would love for one to be a girl.  Not that she would ever replace Colette but having one of each would give each Aaron and Bridgett a chance to have a brother and a sister who will actually hopefully stay!  In the end he was quite sure that both the babies were boys.  I admit that I was at the time very disappointed to know that we would not be adding another girl to our family.   It would be different if I knew we could have more children and be able to try for another girl next time.  But we know that for health reasons that this needs to be the last pregnancy.   We have decided that it's not worth the risks to me or other babies to keep doing this.  That it's more important for me to be here to raise the children that we have then to try to bring more into our family.  

 I also wanted Bridgett to have a sister in THIS life.  I know that Colette is a part of our family forever and that one day she and Bridgett will share the bond that I love sharing with my own sister but I wanted Bridgett to be able to have that bond in this life too.  I also worry that being the only living girl in our family that she will grow up to be a spoiled bugger!  She already has her Daddy wrapped around her little finger and I think sharing him with another sister would be good for her.  But I guess it's not meant to be, and as my own sister pointed out.  At least she is NOT the youngest!  I think it can be worse when the only girl ends up being the youngest :)

 I have since become excited about the prospect of having two little baby boys join our family.  I've even gone and picked out some cute fabric to start getting some things made for them.  I may not be able to dress Bridgett and Colette in matching dresses on holidays BUT I can (for a while at least till they rebel against me!) Dress Aaron and these two babies in matching sunday outfits! Oh the fun!  I think I need to figure out how to make ties!

After the appointment Dusty and I took the kids to lunch.  Aaron was so excited to have two brothers on the way, and Bridgett is still just positive that they are two girls NOT two boys.  :(  Poor thing,  she is going to be vastly out numbered,  but I'm pretty sure that she can hold her own!